by Cameryn Moore
Someone hit me up on Facebook earlier this week asking how much a call with me would cost. If this were something I wanted to entertain—an unsolicited approach from a real-life acquaintance—I would have already had the infrastructure in place. I would have an adult-services-friendly payment system, along with an appropriate URL with a rate sheet on its own little page. This has happened to me more than once; if I took customers through any channels other than my company, I would have already had my intake process in place.
I get to set the terms, right?
I’ve written before about how I flirt with people pretty much nonstop as part of my street-promotion strategy. I’ve also written—I think I have—about the blur that performers experience when they handle sex or sexual themes or sexy costumes on stage. Some audience members have a hard time distinguishing that what they are performing isn’t necessarily who they are. In fact, it’s probably not.
I think one way actors try to avoid this problem is by not playing themselves. Burlesquers, for example, they take off the glitter and the corsets and what-all, and you wouldn’t recognize some of them at the grocery store. They are deliberately trying to put space between themselves and that self. Whereas I am not trying to put space there. If anything, I’m trying to close the gap. I want to keep playing myself as close to Real Me as possible. I remember, after a Fringe friend had seen Phone Whore and before he made a major, earth-rattling reveal about his own sexuality, he asked me: are you as open-minded in real life as you are on stage? That was the only reason he felt safe enough to talk with me, and that is reason enough for me to keep being myself, open and authentic and really me, for as long as I can. For as long as the plays demand it.
But I can see where this might get a bit confusing to people. Does she really mean it? I think the thing is this: just because I give approval one time for one thing, doesn’t mean that you automatically have the right to expect that from me at any other time, with anybody else. I don’t deserve to be harassed or propositioned. I deserve to be treated with respect when I say:
Just because I do phone sex with my clients, doesn’t mean that I’ll do phone sex with you. Just because I get naked in my show, doesn’t mean I’ll get naked for you. Just because I will talk dirty on the sidewalk, doesn’t mean that I’ll talk dirty in your ear, when I’m caught between you and the wall at the diner. No, I will not give you a sample of my phone sex voice. No, I will not lean over to give you a better view of my tits. The stuff I wear shows them exactly as much as I feel like showing them. I mean, I might, but it’s better odds for you if you let me do the approach.